When you win, you loss!

Sometimes your victory is your loss, as they say it. But I have felt it all day today, and I am still feeling it!

I have been suffering all this year to get to what I am today, but I have lost!!! I can not be with my family for Christmas, New Year, or any other holidays. Have I gained the balance, or should I convince myself that by giving up on these today, I guarantee a better future! Is the balance occurs over time!?